"Go" by Grimes (ft. Blood Diamonds) [Single; 2014]
Last weekend at FYF Fest, Grimes introduced Blood Diamonds on stage towards the end of her set, and I immediately knew what was coming. Of course what came after were series of steel drums hits, setting up the melody for the two’s collaboration single “Phone Sex.” Though this was the second time I’ve seen Grimes and her bringing out and performing with Blood Diamonds, it still felt like an exciting surprise. Not to say Grimes’ own songs aren’t danceable, but “Phone Sex” has an extra “dance” edge to it for me, at least when played live, so my excitement went up even more, and I started moving (dancing, I guess) about with even more glee.
Being that Blood Diamonds was already up on stage, the song after “Phone Sex” was obvious though nonetheless exciting: the harpsichord-like loop for “Go” began playing and I went nuts. I half-shouted, half-mumbled unintelligible lyrics along with Grimes, and shamelessly did some weird falsetto thing for the pre-chorus (the point is, I can’t sing well to save my life). And when the beat dropped, all hell broke loose in my head and I started jumping without a care, because I mean what else are you supposed to do? It’s cheesy and dumb as hell but it’s also really fun losing it to the stupid drop.
Well, all was good until I looked around the crowd around me, and the only person reacting the same way was my friend, who also jumped up and down with me. I’ve experienced this “only person going crazy” role more than a few times at this point to really care about how I’m acting, but no matter how many times I live through that situation, it just kills my vibe. I basically felt like the obnoxious dude getting way too wild for his own good, perhaps under too much influence — for the record, all I had was a beer in me, one cup of beer!
Is everyone really that shy? I mean, I consider myself a very reserved person, but when it comes to live music, especially at music festivals, I try to get rid of most of my inhibition that holds me back. Because I’m seeing my favorite band who are playing some songs I’m personally attached to, the ones I sing like an idiot to in the car alone, so I want to feel that 100% in a situation where it’s meant to thrives at its fullest. I just can’t bare to just stand there still and stare at the stage. I don’t think I can even stand still to good music even in the car; I have to sing along in a whisper or nod my head or something.
"Go" came on when I was driving back home today, and I felt a slight bit of embarrassment because it brought me back the memory from last weekend where I was the only one jumping to the drop. I shouldn’t feel any of that, but I can’t help but to feel a little bit of judgment even when it’s from days past.